UK public sector pension schemes increased their overall exposure to alternative assets by nearly two-thirds in the three years to the end of 2016, according to State Street.At the end of the year the 105 public pension funds in England, Scotland, Wales, and Northern Ireland had collectively invested £16.6bn (€19.1bn) in asset classes including infrastructure, real estate, and private equity, according to State Street’s research. This amounts to roughly 6.6% of the total assets in the local government pension scheme (LGPS).Andy Todd, head of UK pensions and banks at State Street, said the rise was “significant”, although the starting point was low.“Pension funds do want to investigate these asset classes – some of them, maybe, for the first time,” he said. “When you look at alternatives they tend to be long term asset classes,” Todd added. “Ultimately, the LGPS funds are open defined benefit schemes, so they have an investment time horizon that is arguably infinite.”The UK government has tasked LGPS funds in England and Wales to pool their assets to save costs and give more scale to invest in infrastructure projects in the country. Some have begun scaling up their resources in alternatives already: the London Pension Funds Authority and Greater Manchester Pension Fund have created a joint infrastructure fund, and were joined last year by the Berkshire Pension Fund.The £35bn Northern pool – involving the Greater Manchester Pension Fund, West Yorkshire Pension Fund, and Merseyside Pension Fund – has said it wants a long-term allocation of 15% to infrastructure, increasing by 10 percentage points the combined funds’ current allocation to the asset class.State Street’s research also found that, in the three years to the end of 2016, LGPS funds’ total exposure to UK equities declined by 5% to £37.9bn (15% of total assets).In contrast, the allocation to emerging markets equities rose by a third – albeit from a low base. LGPS funds had £446.5m invested in emerging market equities at the end of 2016, State Street reported, accounting for just 0.2% of overall assets.Todd said of the overall results: “This research highlights how these pension funds are becoming increasingly comfortable navigating complex asset classes such as alternatives as well as emerging market equities. These changes to the investment landscape are systematic, so we will likely see a continued trend toward such investments.”
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The forward’s involvement against a side he was desperate to join will serve as a reminder to Spurs fans of what Levy missed, but Pochettino insists outside perceptions of the chairman are often misguided. “It’s unfair because sometimes it’s difficult to have all the information, for you and for our supporters. For me, Daniel is a brilliant man,” Pochettino said. “It’s very difficult to manage a big club like Tottenham and in his position, it’s always difficult to be kind to everyone but his job is fantastic and we have a very good relationship. “We have a very good communication. We share all the decisions. “It’s true, it’s not fair when the people sometimes (criticise) because they don’t have all the information. But for me, he’s a fantastic man and I can learn a lot from him.” Levy’s reputation as a ruthless negotiator is well-known and he has been frequently accused of taking too strong a lead in Tottenham’s transfer decisions, which are now also informed by head of recruitment Paul Mitchell. Pochettino, however, has final say and insists the process runs smoothly – although he admits to feeling the pressure of Levy’s negotiating prowess himself in the past. “It is true. I can feel that,” Pochettino said with a smile. “He’s very clever, I’ve learned a lot from him in every meeting. I have to be really strong. “I don’t have an agent so he offers a contract and I say yes, or no, or ‘I want more’ – it was very tough and he won.” Pochettino added: “It’s true today that we share all (decisions) and we take the decision to bring in players or not. “This is a very good thing because I feel good, he feels good. We have people behind us that feel important people for the club too. I think that we are a unit, and this is the most important thing. “It’s for that (reason) that I’m very happy here because I find very good people, with the staff, and with Daniel we have a very good relationship.” Spurs have played European football in eight of the last nine seasons under Levy’s stewardship but the ENIC businessman, who took charge in 2001, divides opinion at White Hart Lane. Advocates point to the club’s consistent challenging for Champions League football, a state-of-the-art training ground and a new 61,000-seater stadium on the way. Press Association Mauricio Pochettino has praised Daniel Levy and insists any criticism directed towards the Tottenham chairman is unfair. But detractors argue progress off the pitch has been prioritised over success on it, with Levy notoriously reluctant to back managers with the funds needed to reach the top four but quick to sack them when they fail to do so. Pochettino, however, is currently very much in favour, having led Spurs to 13 games unbeaten in the league, and the Argentine insists he has felt nothing but support from Levy so far. “After 18 months, I can judge him because it’s impossible to give an opinion about the past but after 18 months here, always he is very friendly with me, we have a very good relationship,” Pochettino said. “The way that he suffers for Tottenham, for his club, for the people – he is very sensitive in that but sometimes it’s difficult to show that to you and our supporters. “For me, he is one of the best presidents in England or the world. It’s a brilliant job how the club is today, how the training ground is, the project, the future, the new stadium and how he works. “For me, I can only praise him because it’s brilliant.” Fans’ frustration mounted again in the summer as Spurs failed to sign a striker, instead scrambling to finalise a last-minute deal for Saido Berahino and then upsetting West Brom with a series of penny-pinching bids. Pochettino, however, is pragmatic and continues to make the best of his youthful squad, with the team only four points off first ahead of Saturday’s trip to The Hawthorns, where Berahino is likely to be in action.
For all the Latest Sports News News, Cricket News News, Download News Nation Android and iOS Mobile Apps. New Delhi: The consistent rains in Surat had threatened to make the India vs South Africa women’s series a damp squib. The second and third matches were washed out and the wet outfield had reduced the fourth match into a 17-overs per side contest. However, the fourth match saw a 15-year-old star take centrestage and put on a fabulous display to signal the depth of talent in the Indian women’s team. 15-year-old Shafali Verma, from Rohtak, smashed 46 and was well supported by Poonam Yadav’s three wickets as India won the match by 51 runs to take an unassailable 2-0 lead in the five-match Twenty20 International series played at the Lalabhai Contractor stadium in Surat. South Africa chose to bowl but their plan immediately backfired as Verma and Smriti Mandhana shared an aggressive opening stand. Verma was aggressive on Tumi Sekhukhune and she slammed two boundaries in her first over and she raised her aggression even further by hammering Sune Luus for a four and a six. When Mandhana fell to Nadine de Klerk, Verma neared her fifty by hammering Sekhukhune for a six but the bowler had her revenge in style. Also Read | Three Maidens In A Twenty20 International – Deepti Sharma Of India Creates RecordHarmanpreet blasted a four and a six off Nonkululeko Mlaba as India kept up a superb rate of scoring. Jemimah Rodrigues was the key in the middle order and she ensured India did not lose momentum by hammering two consecutive fours off Ayabonga Khaka. India ended with 140/4 in their 17 overs and immediately, South Africa were facing an uphill task.Also Read | Smriti Mandhana, Harmanpreet Kaur To Miss Women’s Big Bash League For National DutiesLizelle Lee started out with two boundaries but she was run-out by Pooja Vastrakar. South Africa still tried to be aggressive and despite losing Laura Wolvaardt, the South Africans were still in with a chance at 60/2 in the ninth over. However, Poonam Yadav changed the entire complexion of the game yet again as she picked up three wickets in two overs. Poonam was given good support by Radha Yadav and Deepti Sharma as the duo combined to take three wickets for 35 runs in seven overs. South Africa never recovered from their trial by spin and they lost by 51 runs. The fifth and final game will be on October 4 at Surat before the action shifts to the three ODIs which will take place at the Reliance Stadium in Vadodara.
… Guyana to play Cuba in final Group D match on Sunday THEY fell 5-1 to Barbados in their opening game of the CONCACAF Women’s U-17 Caribbean Qualifier tournament on Wednesday, but head coach Akilah Castello said Guyana might be down, but certainly not out of the competition.“We were not too worried about the end result of the game, because our players would have shown some amount of fight, given the challenges they were faced with coming forward to these games,” Castello said while speaking to the Media after her team’s defeat.Despite getting the first goal of the game – a beautiful free-kick by Tiandi Smith – Guyana succumbed to the ‘Bajans’ who got a double from captain Tia Briggs-Thompson, while Tiana Sealy and Caitlin Padmore each had a strike. Smith’s own goal added to the tally for the visitors.“For these girls, it was the first time being exposed to such a major game so they were nervous,” Castello said, stating that the players were selected from the Guyana Football Federation’s (GFF) Academy Training Centres (ATCs).“Well, the coaching staff, we tried our best to give them an idea of what the atmosphere would have been like. We also told them about the additional coaches in the stands, but, like I said, this is the first major competition for these girls, most of them never played under floodlights before, so we did our best to help them along the way,” Castello said.Guyana will play Cuba on Sunday at 17:00hrs in their final game of championship, but Castello pointed out, for her coaching staff, while winning and moving ahead is something they would want, their primary focus is development.“For us, we’re looking at it as a form of development. They have to learn to play in a formation in a competitive environment. They did try their best to execute. We were not so worried because we basically lost the game (to Barbados) on free-kicks and possession-wise I think it was balanced, so we’re not too worried,” the Lady Jags coach noted.In the Caribbean Zone, 19 Caribbean Football Union (CFU)-member national teams have entered the qualifying competition, consisting of two stages.Apart from Haiti, who received a bye as hosts of the final round, the remaining 18 teams entered the first round and were divided into three groups of four teams and two groups of three teams.The winners of each group advance to the final round to join Haiti, where they are divided into two groups of three teams, with the top three teams qualifying for the final tournament as the CFU representatives.Trinidad and Tobago, Puerto Rico, Saint Lucia, Guyana, and St Vincent and the Grenadines were automatically seeded in Groups A–E respectively, as hosts of each first round group, while the remaining 14 teams were seeded based on the results of the previous two editions of the qualifying competition.
Fridaynight, the UW wrestling team will conclude the regular season as they welcome10th-ranked Northwestern to the Field House. TheBadgers are coming into the weekend after moving up five spots to eighth place inthe latest USA Today InterMat/NWCA wrestling polls. After defeating two top 10teams last weekend in Michigan and Minnesota, the Badgers are peaking right atthe time head coach Barry Davis was hoping they would.?The guysdid a good job (last weekend),? Davis said. ?I think we?re starting to comearound right now, at the right time. If we continue to do the little thingsright, I think we?ll be all right.?AfterFriday?s match, the grapplers will get a little bit of a break before the BigTen Championships March 8-9 in Minneapolis. Davis knows that this is the timeof year when his guys could use a day or two off.?I thinkwe all need a break,? Davis said. ?The coaches need a mental break too to getaway and re-charge a bit. It?s a nice break to watch some great high schoolwrestling [and to] watch some of the recruits compete at the Kohl Center. Welet the guys get away for a bit too. So it?s good for both of us.?But beforethe Badgers can rest, they need to take care of the Wildcats. Northwesterncomes to Madison after going 2-0 last weekend, defeating Purdue and Illinois.Currently 8-7 overall and 3-3 in the Big Ten, the Wildcats come in with threereturning All-Americans.The toptwo weight-classes Friday night will feature four of the top wrestlers in thenation. At 197, junior Dallas Herbst, coming off back-to-back wins via pin,will face off against reigning Big Ten champion Mike Tamillow. Herbst iscurrently ranked 8th in the nation with an overall record of 25-2, whileTamillow is 2nd with a record of 23-2. At heavyweight, junior Kyle Massey,coming in with a 10-match win streak, will take on top-ranked Dustin Fox.?They?vetalked about it quite a bit,? Davis said. ?I know they?ve been thinking aboutit. (Assistant coach) Bart (Chelesvig) has been working a lot with them, Bart?spreparing them, and I?m sure they?ll be ready for it.?Once pastFriday, Wisconsin has two weeks to prepare for the Big Ten conferencetournament. With seedings for the tournament not out until the week of thetournament, Davis will use next week to keep up on workouts and training. SophomoreTrevor Brandvold believes that while the break will be nice, he and histeammates will be ready to go all-out once practice starts up again.?It?samazing how two or three days off the mat,? Brandvold said. ?You misswrestling. You?re itching to get back to the mat. That will help us get somereal intense workouts.?After theseedings come out, his grapplers will watch video of their first roundopponents and prepare for their opening round matches. Senior Craig Henningknows he, along with the rest of the team, will be ready to go on that firstwhistle in Minneapolis.?Now that we?ve seen most of the Big Ten guys that we?llbe facing,? Henning said. ?We still have to focus on some of the other people.We?ll watch some tape, worry about what we?ll have to do for each individualmatchup and figure out what we need to do to come into each match with.?
Entering the 2019-20 University of Wisconsin men’s hockey season, a lot of optimism surrounded the team. A collection of veteran talent combined with the addition of freshman phenoms Cole Caufield and Alex Turcotte, Big Ten coaches predicted Wisconsin would compete for a Big Ten title.After a red-hot start, the Badgers jumped to a 5-1 record, even notching a sweep over two-time defending National Champion, Minnesota Duluth. Wisconsin looked primed for a Frozen Four appearance in Detroit. But as conference play has reared into high gear, the Badgers have hit a midseason lull, losing nine of their past 15 matchups — riding a three-game losing streak.As conference play continues to heat up, Wisconsin needs to start fresh in 2020 to salvage their season. With a start that brought so much hope, Wisconsin must improve on a variety of areas if they wish to receive their first NCAA Tournament appearance since the 2013-14 season.Men’s Hockey: Badgers continue to struggle, get swept against Michigan StateThe University of Wisconsin men’s hockey team (7-10-1, 2-7-1-1 Big Ten) dropped both games in East Lansing Friday and Saturday Read…While the Badgers have had a potent offensive attack that’s tied for second in the Big Ten in goals (56), the defense has struggled to hold their own, especially in Big Ten play. Wisconsin ranks last in the Big Ten in goals, giving up 3.44 goals per game. While high scoring affairs are entertaining for the common hockey fan, Wisconsin’s lack of defense is hurting their team’s success.Wisconsin’s inability to contain opposing offenses is a combination of allowing a surplus of opportunities and struggling to come up with key saves. Wisconsin allows opponents close to 33 shots per game, the third-worst in the conference. Furthermore, sophomore goalkeeper Daniel Lebedeff has enjoyed a roller-coaster season.Lebedeff has shown a mixture of bright spots and struggles, shutting out No. 14 Notre Dame on 22 shots in Wisconsin’s Nov. 15 3–0 win against the Irish, but also allowing six goals in a 6–1 bloodbath loss to Penn State. If the Badgers want to play deep into March, the defense and Lebedeff need to complement the offense consistently.Men’s Hockey: Inside Caufield’s early experiences as a BadgerThe immense hard work of Wisconsin Hockey’s recruitment has finally paid off. Freshman forward Cole Caufield is climbing the ladder Read…Much of Wisconsin’s early success can be credited to the electric offensive outbursts from the forward trio of Caufield, Turcotte and Roman Ahcan. In Wisconsin’s first ten games, the trio was virtually unstoppable, scoring 18 goals combined en route to a 5-5 record over that span.Though Caufield has continued his steady play with four goals over his past eight games, both Turcotte and Ahcan have struggled to keep up.Opposing defenses have managed to slow Turcotte down. Turcotte is currently in the midst of an eight-game scoreless slump after starting his freshman season off with a bang, netting six goals in Wisconsin’s first six games. Ahcan, the team’s fourth-leading goal scorer (five) also hasn’t scored in Wisconsin’s past seven games.Men’s Hockey: Sitting down with star freshman Alex TurcotteThe University of Wisconsin men’s ice hockey team (7-10-1, 2-7-1-1 Big Ten) is having a rough go at the dish Read…Overall, as conference play has heated up, Wisconsin’s offense as a team has regressed significantly. The Badgers are averaging just 2.20 goals per game during conference play, compared to an impressive 4.25 during non-conference play.That trend continues when looking at Wisconsin’s efficiency during the power play. In non-conference play, Wisconsin was extremely efficient with the advantage, scoring one power-play goal per game. As conference play began, Wisconsin has regressed on the power play, scoring a measly 0.60 power-play goals per game.With both individual and team struggles, it is paramount for Wisconsin’s offense to get back on track. To make the NCAA Tournament, returning to one of the most explosive offenses in the country is a major key for the Badgers. Men’s Hockey: Inconsistencies continue to plague Wisconsin against MinnesotaThe No. 19 University of Wisconsin men’s hockey team (6-7-1, 1-4-1-1 Big Ten) struggled immensely against the University of Minnesota Read…Finally, Wisconsin has become vulnerable to starting slow. In recent play, teams have caught Wisconsin off-guard early in the first period. Over Wisconsin’s past six games (1-4-1), the Badgers have been outscored 6–2 in the first period. In their Nov. 22 4–1 loss to arch-rival Minnesota, the Gophers blitzed Wisconsin early, scoring two goals in the first six minutes of the game.While Wisconsin’s roster is filled with talent, it is difficult for any team to rebound from early deficits, no matter the skill of the team. An end to Wisconsin’s early game woes will help the team be more competitive in 2020.The Big Ten conference is loaded with talent. With four of the seven teams ranked, there is no easy game in the Big Ten’s grueling conference schedule. At a time of a mid-season lull, the Wisconsin men’s hockey team (7-10-1, 2-7-1-1) has been beaten up by their conference’s challenging schedule. Though Wisconsin has suffered a frustrating middle of the season, there is still time to turn the season around. With a roster filled with NHL talent, Wisconsin must make adjustments offensively and defensively, and execute early in the game.With two upcoming series against three ranked opponents (The Ohio State University, Michigan State and Notre Dame) Wisconsin has the opportunity to get their season back on track.
Published on April 26, 2020 at 12:00 am Facebook Twitter Google+ In the second episode of HBO’s “Band of Brothers,” two U.S. paratroopers convene in the dark woods of northern France on June 6, 1944. From different units in the wrong drop zone, all they wanted to do amid Armageddon was find their units.“I think we’re lost, sir,” Private Hall says to Lieutenant Winters. The officer replies, “We’re not lost, Private. We’re in Normandy.”That, I think, captures how I’ve been feeling recently — about life-turned-unrecognizable, finishing college and this phase of my life, while trying in earnest to map out what the hell comes next. I sit here, in my childhood bedroom taking online classes while applying for jobs that might not exist tomorrow, all while trying to rationalize that in the last six weeks the world as I know it went on hold. I’m here, somewhere in space and time, totally unfamiliar. I’m unsure where to go.But I’ve felt this way before.It’s March 2018. I’m a sophomore. I’m sports editor at The D.O. and I’m not even 20 yet. I’m also on the brink of academic suspension from Syracuse for a year. My depression and anxiety peaked in ways they never have before — I got stress hives. Eventually, I got notice I was suspended.AdvertisementThis is placeholder textOn a Tuesday I sat at my desk in my South Campus apartment, weeping to my parents. That Friday, I was sitting across from my dad at Zingerman’s in Ann Arbor, Michigan, on our way home from the airport. I felt like a failure.I was lost.As we finished our sandwiches in the relatively empty upstairs dining room, we talked. What we talked about stays with me and my dad. Suffice to say, though, it grounded me and helped me recognize that even though I was beyond what I thought was rock bottom, life will keep going no matter what I do or don’t do. I have all the support in the world, but it was incumbent on me to fix my problems.Fortunately, a path presented itself to me. I appealed my suspension via letter and won — it was a hell of a letter. I was coming back to school for my junior year, but I had a thin line to walk. I needed to do well in school to prove to SU that I was capable, that my sophomore year was a blip, not a regression to the mean. I needed to prove that to myself too.I started covering football for The D.O. my junior year, Syracuse’s magical 10-3 season, highlighted by a bowl trip and a W-I-L-D day at Clemson in October 2018. I discovered what my dream job was.I fell in love and still am — hi, Emma!I learned not to be so hard-headed and that dealing properly with my anxiety and depression were not just things that made me feel better, but made it possible to live the life I wanted.That day in March 2018, on the phone with my parents, is the lowest I’ve ever been. I hope it stays that way. From that day, I spent two years climbing out of my self-created hole. And this March, as my 22nd birthday approached, I truly felt I was finally back in control of my kingdom. That maybe, just maybe, life would work out.But at home for spring break, I found myself crying into Emma’s shoulder. She knows the story I just told you. And that day, as I wept again, it felt, and still feels, like the last two years of finding myself and my way were now for nothing.I managed to get my degree, but for what? I learned what my dream job is and from where I sit today, I struggle to see how it will materialize.Now? I don’t know. I’m incredibly fortunate. But I sit here and I can’t seem to escape my own shroud of pointlessness. It truly feels like my life to this point has been for… I don’t know.I’m lost.But I’ve managed to find my way once before. Who’s to say I won’t do it again?Andrew Graham was a senior staff writer for The Daily Orange where his column will no longer appear. He can be reached at email@example.com and on Twitter @A_E_Graham.— 30 — Comments
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